A New Lease On Life – How Depression Woke Me Up

In a recent episode of my depression and executive dysfunction, I found myself laying on my bed for two weeks with projects due. In the back of my mind I knew that what I was doing was wrong but for some reason my mind and body was adamant on being still and non-functional.

The consequences of this made me lose a client I was dependent on, risk my eviction, and place a harsh dent on my relationship with my mother after I asked to move back home so I can build my strength and money as I have spent a year in this new place renting with nothing to show for it besides an unsteady income and a not-so-sure-fire methodology to gain clients with my work.

In this case of having to be locked out of my apartment by my landlord for being two weeks late on my rent, I found myself stranded but luckily – contrary to my mother’s belief – I had friends who had my back in a time of need where she couldn’t spare room for me no longer for my presence is a threat to her peace, a son that hasn’t been forgiven for his past mistakes that are brought up every time whenever he needs a place to stay.

This was a necessary event however to wake me up at least. Lord knows the mistakes I have made and the opportunities I have wasted.

I had a friend who loaned me the money for the rent, and another friend who let me sleep at their place for two days while I was sorting this situation out. A woman who has had my back and supported me through a lot was giving me the advice I needed. I love her so much.

In these two days, I solidified my plans and came up with a routine and schedule, which I started to implement today albeit half of the routine was adhered to, and this blog entry is the first reflection implementation that this routine has. I have already discovered a better method for gaining clients using today’s technology, created my first Figma project through a tutorial, and I feel more stable mentally. I will be following this routine as strict as I can.

Hopefully, with this new method to life I am trying out, I will have a new lease on my life as I search for a new place to stay at that is cheaper, having a better grip on my life so as to not mess up the process I have spent so long developing.